Orphan

Who told you that I’m your dad? Huh, tell me who told that? I’ve no parents, no children, and no siblings. I’m just I. Don’t ask where I came from and also don’t ask who your parents are. I’ve raised you and I love you that are enough for you. I’m not drunk tonight let’s have a serious talk. Every time you would come and complain that I’m a bad man. Told you a million times that I’m not a bad man I’m not a man at all. I’m just I, clear! Tonight I’m well-dressed and sober. Do not wipe my eyes if I cry. Tonight is for crying – cry cry and cry. If they do not recognize me what I can do. Every day you would come and ask, “When will we become rich?” I’ve no answer for it. Play with your same old toys I cannot buy you new ones I’m broke. And play with your same old friends I cannot help you make new friends I’m lost in nowhere. Go to your same old school I cannot send you to that school told you I’m broke. I explained it to them a thousand times that I’m not bad but next day they would fire me from the job.

Lazy? Hmmm, you’re right I’m lazy but that’s my talent. You’re right I do not read books. Told you I’m just I I’m a creator – the creator of my own writings. I do not lie outside you can find me in my stories. Tonight is not for writing I’m sober tonight. Do you think I’m really alcoholic? No way, I’m the creator of wine. I rain wine all over my creatures – of course I’m talking about the readers. And of course my writing is not perfect it would be boring for the readers if I tell them about everything. Leaving mysteries behind is not my habit it is so because my stories are not perfect.

What? You came out of her vagina and that make you her child, no way. I know you love playing hide and seek. I know getting in and getting out is your favorite game. You jump from hole to hole I know that. True! That’s an unscientific way of describing you. I don’t do science science uses cuts. Just like I science is also lazy. Science is based on the laws of nature some people would call it the laws of physics (LoP). You call it LoP I call it cuts. Science cuts reality making it round and round smaller and smaller then presents it to you just like pizza. Reality is way bigger you lie in that bigger reality. In that bigger reality you need not be created you’re just there. And since that’s a bigger reality and since that is not subject to LoP that allow you to describe yourself in whatever way you want to. Life and death are different phases you pass through. You also change personalities – personality disorder came with you by default.

Did you complete your homework? Go and do it your book might come with homework (HW), I do not assign HW to my readers though. You think I also created readers? No way! Creation comes in steps: I create a piece of writing and that produces readers. If a story is boring it would produce no readers. You see what I mean to say? And you also know that some of my stories are boring and some are interesting. Parallel universes – why they would not exist. Let’s take things literally. You’ve learned in your school that there are words that have more or less the same meanings – the synonymous words. You have also learned that using the same word over and over in the same story makes it boring the story just does not allow you to do so. Here come your LoP you cannot just avoid it. You start with a minimal usage of LoP but you increase its usage if you need more.

What did you say? Kid what did you say I’m a liar, huh? You do LoP I don’t do it. You’re truthful I’m not. The other night has gone I’m drunk back again. Run run run kid run this way I killed their parents run this way this way kid. I had no choice I had to kill them run fast. Keep walking water is up the hill. Drink the water we’re now safe. Time runs so fast it reminded me when you were little you would come with new words. Of course, they were words but not every word is meaningful. In my last job, one of my lectures was about this particular point, ­ the meaning. Meaningful words come in packets some people would call it quantization. In that lecture I mostly talked about the motion of a particle. I explained that how a particle could make a meaningful move it has to jump from one square of the board to the next one to complete a move. Here your LoP comes again there is no way to get away with it. Each board game comes with its own LoP, ­ the rules.

Did you hear that? They’re still following us. Walk down the hill. Follow me this way. Walk slowly and carefully. They’re animals they don’t realize they would have been eaten by their own parents if I didn’t kill them they were hungry. The cave is not that far. I know you love hide and seek you’ll love that cave. Told you you’ll love it. Back to your words problem. Let me this time do it my way. Today you learned my secrets why I come to this cave. Let me drink more wine here I make wines. I’m drunk again let me do it my way this time. Words are nothing but a bunch of letters ­ the letters that come in both uppercase and lowercase. Told you I’m doing it this time my way. A word that comes in the form of all caps is an abbreviation for another group of words but there is nothing new in it you already know it. A sentence that comes in the form of all caps is used for shouting but there is nothing new in that as well you know it it is a new fashion. I got nothing I’m drinking the same old wine.

You know why did I kill my siblings? Who told you that I’m a creator? I’m a killer I killed my whole family except her. How I could kill her. You know meaningless words are also necessary they fill the gaps some people would call it continuity. Take eat this apple this is red I know you like red apples. Don’t wipe my eyes let me cry loudly I miss her eat the apple. You know my interview went very well I’m hoping I’ll get this job it’s my dream job. I’ve prepared very interesting talks in advance I hope this time they’ll not kick me out of the lecture hall. I’m hoping we’ll be rich soon I’ll be able to send you to that school you’re dreaming for. Make new friends and buy brand new cloths we’re going to be rich soon.

Who told you that one of the hands is more superior over the other? Do you really think that handedness is one of the laws of nature? Can you you or you explain in a nutshell what the universe is? What’s life, ­ was it created or is it the result of evolution? What’s sex? What’s is? And what’s was? Is there any future? What’s here and what’s there? What’s reality? What’s imagination? Who are you you and you? Why are you all so quiet? Why you all are here? Is it really important for all of you to attend my talks? What are the laws of nature and what’s nonsense? Is death an ultimate end? What’s an end?

Hold me tight I may misbehave just leave one of my hands open chain me all over just leave my that right hand open I want to wipe my eyes with it when I cry I told you several times I didn’t kill her she is alive find her let me wipe my eyes I miss her I killed everyone but her how I could kill her what I do I do it for her she lives in my heart she has no brain find her she might be lost in nowhere she was last seen in that cave when you go to that cave bring me some wine I’m tearless my mouth is dry my feet are burning I’m breathing for her please find her she has no brain she needs help.

Let me first explain symmetry and let me do it my way. Tell my doctors that their patient is fine and that their patient can do things with only one hand. When I do things my way I then don’t do it your ways so let’s not talk about symmetry. Let’s first discuss the first question, “What’s a language?” A story is created but a language. Language contains words and pauses. In the new fashion the uppercase letters are almost avoided and thus when such distinction between uppercase and lowercase letters is lifted then each word is an abbreviation for another group of words ad infinitum. A language is endless but a story. The end of each story is pasted to the beginning of the next story that takes a story to the next level. It is possible to write each story on a single page the physical size of which is unimportant what’s important is the top and bottom edges of the sheets and then those sheets are pasted to each other in a such a way that the bottom of the previous sheet is pasted to the top of the new sheet as it can be seen in this scheme the newest story comes at the bottom and the oldest story comes at the top and since normally lower numbers are assigned to bottom and higher values are given to top thus a story evolves from is to was in a flashback.

Number is next but before that we need to know what a definition is, in short, a definition is unnecessary what’s necessary is to use a word in a sentence. Each word has its own personality when new words are introduced the too old words might be discarded but both new and old words remain in a dictionary. The difference between numbers and letters is that letters come in uppercase and lowercase but numbers. It’s unwise to use letters for numbers they are different languages. You know ideas are not created they just occur it you and that a creator lies between idea and language,­ idea then creator then language this is how they go. Idea is dressed by a creator, ­ the dress is language. You know a language can be written, spoken and much more but a written language cannot be fully and correctly spoken, for instance. Take, for example, the phrases ‘one plus one’ and ‘1+1’ they both produce the same sounds­, one sound produces several languages some people would call one-to-many. But it is okay as long as lower values are assigned to bottom. The creator first sounded it produced hundreds of thousands of written languages. That huge cough caused the creator to spit all words those words were then pasted on that sheet whose size was unimportant that made the sheet heavier that heavy sheet then started to go up and down that produced wavy water, in short, the dead sheet the sheet whose size was unimportant tuned in to a lively sheet.

Remember, you didn’t write a recommendation letter for me because I got a D grade in your course, huh. Hey, you too you did the same thing. And now you and you are expecting I’ll respect you, no way. You know why then the creation stopped because the creator was not angry anymore when she spitted. Told you there are no men all are women that’s it.