I have a limit how many people there should be in a party. If the limit exceeded I'm in trouble. 25 is my new limit. No more people or I'm out. This place is very noisy. Please no more people. I cannot breathe. Don't stop me I'm leaving I'm not hungry I'll eat at home.... Continue Reading →
Coping With Bipolar Disorder
I live in two states. Either doing nothing staying bed or being very energetic and researcholic. I will call these two states down-state and up-state. I feel I'm the most stupid and lazy in the down-state. Nothing helps. I use different techniques to overcome this state. My two most favorite places are a bookstore and... Continue Reading →
Bipolar Disorder and Creativity
In this post, I'll share my personal experience as to how bipolar disorder impacts creativity. As to whether one becomes more creative if suffering from mental illness. In the case of bipolar disorder, the answer is simple. Whenever I think of a great idea I become excited, so it triggers mania. Being excited or happy... Continue Reading →
My New Meds for Bipolar Disorder
I have been on Lithium for many years to control mania plus other medications. Over time I developed tremors in my hands that others can notice. I work with my psychiatrist and neurologist. My neurologist determined that the shakiness was coming from psyche meds. So he recommended Seroquel (Quetiapine) which does not cause tremors. Besides... Continue Reading →
کوپړۍ: شپږمه برخه
کوپړي یو ځل بیا د خپل خیالی ملګری سره ملاويګی: (( کوپړۍ د ليکچر شورو د خپلي دي مقولي نه کوی ــ زه پرانيستې، او ته بند کتاب یې. راځه چي دا کردارونه سره بدل کړو. اوس ته پرانپستې او زه بند کتاب شوم ! ملګرې وایی ــ ته داسې ولي نه وايې چي اوس... Continue Reading →
کوپړۍ: پنځمه برخه
کوپړۍ یو ځل بیا اُصولِ یوګایی په استعمال کي راولی : (( کوپړۍ دوه سُپر روبوټونه جوړکړی. یو روبوټ ته دئ خه روبوټ او بل ته بد روبوټ وایی. دا دوړه سپُر روبوټونه د انسان نه هزاهاو درجي زیات ذهین وی، په خپله سوچ هم کولي شی او د هري مسلي حل ډير زر او... Continue Reading →
Chapter 15: Hollywood Or Heaven
In May 2014, I find a job on a Jobsite. The position is a Research Scientist at Quantum Gravity Research, California. In the job description, it says that they are looking for an outside-the-box thinker to join their team. They study consciousness at quantize spacetime level, a scale called Planck’s scale. I didn’t know that... Continue Reading →
Chapter 14: The Stop Sign
Once started in 2009, the manic episodes occur almost every year. Either in winter or summer. One would blame the weather for it, but I know my triggers. It returns whenever I solve a problem. Usually in breaks – summer or winter. When it happens, it happens in the early night. I get an idea... Continue Reading →
Chapter 13: Recurring Episodes
In fall 2008, a professor in our department gives a talk on Question Theory in a Friday colloquium. Question theory is useful in artificial intelligent, for machines to ask relevant questions. Questions are essential to request information. In 1978, Richard T. Cox defined a question as the system of assertions that answer it. The professor... Continue Reading →
Chapter 12: Again Ph.D. Again Coursework Again Comprehensive Exam
In the summer of 2006, my ex-roommate Daud, returns from the United States. It is said that Quaidian once Quaidian forever. Quaidians have so many associations with the university that when they come from abroad, they definitely visit the university, to have lunch at Majeed huts and meet with friends. Daud motivates me to apply... Continue Reading →
Mr. Monologue 