How to Overcome Suicidal Thoughts?

One commits suicide if he/she finds himself/herself at the apparent dead end of life. Unfortunately, the family and friends only become aware when the incident takes place. This is the key point that the subject keeps it to himself. The outcome would be different if he discussed his intention with someone, either his friends or family.

I would like to explain this with my own life experience. Once I seriously thought of suicide when I was humiliated by someone I loved. I have discussed this whole incident in my memoir, Sitting in Two Boats. When the incident happened, I came home to finish my life. There was a gun in the house. But before that, I wanted to write a letter.  The suicide note perplexed me. To write a short note, a long, very short or very long one.  When I could arrive at a conclusion, I lied in bed and fell asleep. A while later, I woke up and all of a sudden I remembered that I was going to do something — to finish my life. I did nothing but called my sister-in-law and told her what happened and what I was going to do. I just spoiled the story. There was no more thrill in committing the suicide. It saved my life.

Some minds are suicidal. Another time, I was again inclined to commit suicide. This time it took three days to fully develop the thought. Again, the suicide note was the hurdle in the way — what to wrote. Once I thought to write, “This is a suicide.” When I was thinking this, my wife was at work and my 9-year-old son was at home. I was watching him. Then I thought to myself to play a game with my son. I called it a suicide note game. I never wrote a letter, but now I was going to write one. Originally this letter would be for my son who would only see it when I was dead. I had the flashcards and asked my son to write letters to each other. Just for fun.  I started first. I wrote:

Dear son,

Forgive me I couldn’t do for you what I wanted to do. Hope mommy takes a good care of you.

Love you,

Your Dad

He wrote a short answer, “Get help.” We laughed.

In conclusion, suicidal thoughts build up and expand until you keep it yourself. Share your problem. Spoil the story.